Mannequin Again

As I mentioned before, I got intoxicated to the point to where I felt myself turning into a mannequin. Last night it happened again, but it was different this time- It was stronger and longer. Not only did I go still, but I felt like I had a cock in my pussy and in my mouth at the same time. As amazing as it felt, I still couldn't move or react to what I was feeling. I felt the sensation as if the cocks were going faster, to the point to where I felt an internal orgasm, but I didn't even change my breathing. When the mannequinism faded, I was slightly dizzy, but overall, I couldn't have been happier. I felt stress relief.

Just proof that I am becoming more doll and mannequin-like as each day goes by. And I'm loving this!

-DS<3

Excited!

I cannot stop thinking about the fact that I am finally going to meet my Master in person in just about a month! It has been so long since I have been in the kink scene before Kronos made me his doll, and I don't know how I went so long without it. If the vanilla lifestyle is a preference for someone else, that's great, but I have realized through recent relationships that it is just not my thing. I know this may sound ironic, but even though I am owned, this whole experience so far has been liberating: to no longer feel human with its stresses and troubles, and to just be a lucky doll who is played with by an amazing Owner.

Even though I have all of this new confidence in myself since living like a doll, I am also nervous. My human self wasn't always social, and didn't have a lot of friends. I was always afraid of saying something stupid, especially in front of someone attractive. So I kept pretty quiet. Lately I have been more outgoing and charming, but there might be that tendency still to say something stupid-and I hope this doesn't tome in front of my very attractive Master. But, I think maybe it's in my head, and the excitement definitely outweighs the nervousness.

Have I mentioned how excited I am?
-DS <3

Contacts!

I promise no one paid me to post this- but I love my dolly contacts from Geo Colored Lenses! The contacts, as well as the right make-up, make my eyes look huge, and of course, doll like. I got them today after waiting for a long 3-1/2 weeks, and I couldn't wait to put them on! I am a glasses girl and I never put contacts on before, so I was a little nervous putting them in... but the result is amazing. But when I get the extra cash here and there, I'm going to buy more of different colors and designs.

My old vanilla self was never confident about herself, especially her looks. But when I get dolled up-especially now with these lenses- I love taking pictures of myself and looking in the mirror because I can't believe this is me now, and this is the most attractive I have ever felt. I can't wait for Kronos to see me like this!  ^_^

I HIGHLY recommend anyone who is trying the doll look to get 15 mm contacts at one point or another. I promise it is worth it!

-DS <3

Simply Intoxicated

Last night was the first night I got completely intoxicated since I became a doll 24/7. Usually, my vanilla self is giggly, lively, outgoing, especially when music is playing. But last night was different. I found that not only did I stop thinking, but I stopped moving, even blinking. My breathing slowed dramatically. I believe I was like that for 3-5 minutes, and it was the best feeling. Just completely relaxed.

I have not pinned down what kind of doll I am because I would like to experiment with them all, but I have unintentionally-both to Kronos and I- become a mannequin doll while intoxicated (at least while I am at home). But if I go from a living doll to a still mannequin without even knowing or thinking about it while intoxicated, who knows what kind of doll I'll become when there is another factor/unassigned trigger.

Can't wait to find out.

-DS <3

24/7

The past 2 days I have been 24/7 doll, taking the identity of my vanilla self. I no longer think of myself as my common name, I just know that I have a name that I am referred to in the real world that I need to respond to. Also, I have been walking more confidently, head held high, even through stressful days between work and school. Although I go through these stressful days with a more positive attitude, part of me just wants to quit it all and live the full lifestyle of a doll- ready to serve Master and be played with and used anytime, instead of being used and played by society.

I know my mind is just screaming for this because my dreams the past couple nights. I dreamt I didn't have to go to work at all-in fact there was no real world job for me. My job was to be a doll. The dream the next night, all I did was serve my Master and we took photo evidence of it. 

I don't believe this lifestyle will ever happen to me, that I will be a dolly slave to society. But hey, a doll can dream, can't she?

-DS <3

Becoming a Doll

I feel more like a doll more and more everyday-and the resolutions I made at the beginning of the year help. I'm determined to achieve a doll figure by exercising and eating and taking care of myself better, and so far I'm seeing improvement. I've lost some weight, eating WAY better, which has made my skin much softer. Another resolution is to sound less like a sailor in a conversation by cutting down my swearing, and sound more polite and professional. I've cut down a lot outside of work, but I still need to improve my language while I'm at work. Lastly, I wanted to be able to give myself time to relax instead of stressing about everyone and everything else with no gratitude. So far I have definitely given myself time to relax and to stop and smell the pretty flowers.

As I mentioned in my previous post, I have cut out the biggest unnecessary stress in my life and feel less weighed down, so I am finding myself to be more bubbly and outgoing. I find myself reasons to dance around by myself, and I am willing to go out and have fun more with friends and to events in my area-I have even thought about arriving to some of the public events in full doll attire- lashes, contacts, the whole package.

I wear black, if not all black, whenever I go out (with a doll look to it still), so I will never be comfortable wearing bright colors like pink and yellow outside However, I have started to dress cutesy and brighter colors under my clothes. It makes me feel like everyone who sees me will never guess that underneath  I am a doll- that it's my little secret.

I am having fun becoming a doll, and I can't wait to see how much I can improve by next week alone!  ^_^

-DS <3

The Beginning

Kronos has been hypnotizing me for roughly two weeks now, and although I do not remember everything when we meet, I know that my vanilla life has already improved. Overall, I am more relaxed, both physically and mentally, and I have even gained the courage and confidence to get rid of a negative person that was in my life.

Before hypnosis, I was sexually frustrated for months, and the more I missed all of my kinks, the worse I got. I am now fortunate enough to not only live out my fantasies and kinks with him, but to be allowed to have an orgasm at least several times a day alone when he triggers it. This reason itself has drastically decreased my tension.

I can tell I am more relaxed because my dreams have been pleasant. My dreams used to involve work scenarios, zombie attacks, or  even worse, I couldn't remember a single thing. However, every night for a week or so, I have been experiencing dreams of bondage, pup play, mannequin-ism and asphyxiation, and much, much more.

As a result of being a perfect doll in my dreams, I have been trying to look as doll-like as I can in the vanilla part of my life. I've been making sure my hair and make-up is perfect, wearing bows, and even trying to dress better. I am currently waiting for dolly contacts, which I can't wait to wear for my Master and transform even more into a doll.  I can't help but to feel obedient to him when he tells me that I am a good girl.

I am a grateful doll, and I cannot wait to see what more there is in store. Looking forward to updating!

-DollySlave

Introduction

Welcome to my blog!

I have been active in the kink community for about 3 years now, but I am still learning about new kinks and trends, as well as learning more about how to improve and enjoy my own interests even more. I plan for this blog to act as a personal diary of this exploration for the public to read. I will describe my own experiences as a slave, a doll, and anything my Master, Kronos, would like me to be.

So far, he has been a very generous Master for giving me pleasure from my fantasies- whether  they are ones I have always thought about, or new ideas from new fetishes. And I would like to share my blog of tales and interests with anyone with the same fantasies!