So, since I posted on my FetLife that I was interested in looking for a new Dom/me or switch, I've been getting a lot more messages and meeting new people to share experiences (sadly all of the people who were interested didn't meet a qualification or two I mentioned in the post such as location or age), but it's been fun chatting none of the less.
One of the comments I got from a handful of people was that they don't understand how someone could be a switch: They always felt dominant or always wanted the control. So I thought it might be fun to explain my mindset in being a switch.
To start, I'm already bisexual, so I am already open to what gender I'm interested in (But I'm still monogamous in my relationships). But the way I explain this is this- there are some people I look at and I could imagine being dominated by him or her and have a good (if not, great) time. But then, there are times I look at someone and think "damn, I need to gag you and listen as you attempt to beg for permission to cum." One example I had was a friend of mine who explained (not with the intention of me Domming him) that he was looking for a "sexual deviant." As soon as he said that, that previous thought came to my mind because he was so innocent when it came to sex, and he was a couple years younger than me. (nothing came of it, he has a girlfriend now, and I wasn't interested in him in that way anyways.)
Also, as I mentioned in a previous post when I had thoughts of controlling my last Master, that feeling of suddenly taking control came over me because I knew he would like it, and so would I. It was the thought of "turning the tables"- especially if they didn't expect it. I feel like there's a possibility of becoming bored if it was all one or the other.
If you're ever interested in other topics I can post about, you can always comment an idea or inbox me at dolly.slavegirl@gmail.com
-<3 DS
Saturday, November 30, 2013
Monday, October 28, 2013
1st update
So, I know it's been a while since I've updated- especially after where I left off in the last post. I've been busy with school and work, but I'm trying to squeeze in some fun. you know what they say- "All work and no play..."
The ex-master tried talking to me a little bit more, and suggested a website where it gives you commands and meet others who are into the hypno/doll/bot/bimbo fetish. It seemed alright, but I want the actual human interaction. Everyone I talked to, including Kronos, seemed brainwashed, and not in the fun way. It was actually creepy to a point. I even found it ironic in his case because he's been upset that one of his friends is brainwashed by a pyramid scam. I understand his concern (pyramid scams can have seerious consequences), but committing to a website as a substitute for human interaction (aka the reason I wasn't good enough for him) did not seem right to me either.
Sure, I get lonely here and there, but since my separation from my master my confidence has been the highest it has ever been in my life. I'm doing well in school and work, and I even had some "encounters" with male friends as well ;) but unfortunately not as kinky as I'd like. I'm still playing by ear: debating whether I should have fun and not commit to a relationship until I go on to grad school (which would still be about 2-3 years away), or say the hell with it and look for something serious. Either way, I need a kink fix (preferably ASAP!) It's been a hot minute since I've dolled up, or even wore a zentai, just because it added to the loneliness to not be played with.
But maybe I'll respond or post my own classified on my FetLife. Either way, I'm ready for something new.
<3 DS
The ex-master tried talking to me a little bit more, and suggested a website where it gives you commands and meet others who are into the hypno/doll/bot/bimbo fetish. It seemed alright, but I want the actual human interaction. Everyone I talked to, including Kronos, seemed brainwashed, and not in the fun way. It was actually creepy to a point. I even found it ironic in his case because he's been upset that one of his friends is brainwashed by a pyramid scam. I understand his concern (pyramid scams can have seerious consequences), but committing to a website as a substitute for human interaction (aka the reason I wasn't good enough for him) did not seem right to me either.
Sure, I get lonely here and there, but since my separation from my master my confidence has been the highest it has ever been in my life. I'm doing well in school and work, and I even had some "encounters" with male friends as well ;) but unfortunately not as kinky as I'd like. I'm still playing by ear: debating whether I should have fun and not commit to a relationship until I go on to grad school (which would still be about 2-3 years away), or say the hell with it and look for something serious. Either way, I need a kink fix (preferably ASAP!) It's been a hot minute since I've dolled up, or even wore a zentai, just because it added to the loneliness to not be played with.
But maybe I'll respond or post my own classified on my FetLife. Either way, I'm ready for something new.
<3 DS
Friday, July 12, 2013
The New Me
If my previous posts haven't indicated any troubles, Master Kronos no longer owns me. He did not want to put the effort into me anymore and wants to find an actual girlfriend and thought I could be his little side dish, even if he happens to find a vanilla girlfriend. But as I promised myself at the beginning of the year as my resolution, I am not going to put up (pardon my French) with bull shit, especially with guys, and I told him I will not interfere with his search. He was a good master at first, but the more and more he wanted to look around for a girlfriend or an additional partner, the less he listened to my needs, and well, this happened. For weeks I have been feeling down about myself, thinking I'm going to die alone since he wants to look for someone "different", which I translate to better than me- but even if I do I'm going to still look for the perfect Master or Mistress who will actually treat me right, and if it doesn't happen I'll try to play around. He abused my love and loyalty, and claimed he loved me as a sub, but no one, including myself, would have never guessed.
He said himself I was the best sub he ever had, so I decided that the joke's on him since he gave me up.
He claims I need to improve my life, but since he didn't listen to me, he didn't know I was already on my way. I got a new job where my mentally has drastically improved, ended my spring semester on a good note (and plan to graduate within a year), started to see my friends more, and I'm even losing weight (and I'm continuing that goal) and hell any day now my new blue dolly contacts will arrive at my place, so I am going to look fierce!
But with all this being said, I hope I will update this with positive posts unlike the past couple updates. Who knows what the future has in store for a newly completely single, unattached doll.
So, I'll end this post with a very important lesson to all you owners and dolls out there with a twist from the fabulous Beyonce:
If you like it then you shoulda put a collar on it.
-DS <3
He said himself I was the best sub he ever had, so I decided that the joke's on him since he gave me up.
He claims I need to improve my life, but since he didn't listen to me, he didn't know I was already on my way. I got a new job where my mentally has drastically improved, ended my spring semester on a good note (and plan to graduate within a year), started to see my friends more, and I'm even losing weight (and I'm continuing that goal) and hell any day now my new blue dolly contacts will arrive at my place, so I am going to look fierce!
But with all this being said, I hope I will update this with positive posts unlike the past couple updates. Who knows what the future has in store for a newly completely single, unattached doll.
So, I'll end this post with a very important lesson to all you owners and dolls out there with a twist from the fabulous Beyonce:
If you like it then you shoulda put a collar on it.
-DS <3
Friday, July 5, 2013
Emotions
It is times like this I wish my career is to just be a mindless doll unit.
I was let go from my job this week because my coworkers did not like my personally for some reason and found any reason they could I got a new job within the day, but none of the less I still feel rejected and like a failure. At the same time of this happening, my Master posted on His FetLife account about the idea of another sub. At this point I just felt utterly useless. I understand I am in a different state than Him, but I still worried that He would find someone better than me within His reach. I already have three consecutive experiences with guys breaking my trust with other girls, and I did not want it to happen again. Not to mention I still know He would prefer His vanilla friend over me if He was able to be in a relationship with her. So now I can't help but feel no matter what and with no matter who, there is always going to be someone better than me.
I asked Him about His posts that I was worried about, and turns out I did over-react. Once we cleared the air He put me under hypnosis and made sure I trusted Him. I told Him yes, and I really did feel silly because He has asked and made sure before hand when it comes to playing with someone else, and intercourse was not involved. I allowed Him to erase my emotions because I was more than welcome to get rid of these feelings of failure, jealousy, and loneliness. It was nice, but then He had to give them back to me for when I saw my family later that day. He put me under hypnosis again, and soon as it was over tears immediately took over. I slightly chuckled when I asked why He gave the emotions back to me, but I was serious. I apologized for my jealousy and self- doubt, knowing a lot of it came out due to my recent job loss and past experiences. But He said the best thing anyone has said to me- "it's human to feel that way." It meant a lot to hear that because every time I was jealous (and later confirmed right in the matter) with my exes they would say I am crazy or over-dramatic. But He killed it when I mentioned that He didn't seem like the jealous type, but He corrected me saying He's jealous for His vanilla friend all the time.
All day today all I could think about was just being a mindless doll for Him. I even bought new dolly contacts that have the diamond blue eye look. Not thinking would just let me obey His commands and make Him happy. Not thinking or having emotions would even let me allow another sub to play with us together if that would make Him happy. I hate having emotions, I just want to be a permanent blank slate.
So for now I'll go along for the ride and hope maybe He will see me the way I see Him, and maybe cards will line up in our favor. But realistically knowing my chances I am going to expect living the rest of my life alone.
-DS<3
I was let go from my job this week because my coworkers did not like my personally for some reason and found any reason they could I got a new job within the day, but none of the less I still feel rejected and like a failure. At the same time of this happening, my Master posted on His FetLife account about the idea of another sub. At this point I just felt utterly useless. I understand I am in a different state than Him, but I still worried that He would find someone better than me within His reach. I already have three consecutive experiences with guys breaking my trust with other girls, and I did not want it to happen again. Not to mention I still know He would prefer His vanilla friend over me if He was able to be in a relationship with her. So now I can't help but feel no matter what and with no matter who, there is always going to be someone better than me.
I asked Him about His posts that I was worried about, and turns out I did over-react. Once we cleared the air He put me under hypnosis and made sure I trusted Him. I told Him yes, and I really did feel silly because He has asked and made sure before hand when it comes to playing with someone else, and intercourse was not involved. I allowed Him to erase my emotions because I was more than welcome to get rid of these feelings of failure, jealousy, and loneliness. It was nice, but then He had to give them back to me for when I saw my family later that day. He put me under hypnosis again, and soon as it was over tears immediately took over. I slightly chuckled when I asked why He gave the emotions back to me, but I was serious. I apologized for my jealousy and self- doubt, knowing a lot of it came out due to my recent job loss and past experiences. But He said the best thing anyone has said to me- "it's human to feel that way." It meant a lot to hear that because every time I was jealous (and later confirmed right in the matter) with my exes they would say I am crazy or over-dramatic. But He killed it when I mentioned that He didn't seem like the jealous type, but He corrected me saying He's jealous for His vanilla friend all the time.
All day today all I could think about was just being a mindless doll for Him. I even bought new dolly contacts that have the diamond blue eye look. Not thinking would just let me obey His commands and make Him happy. Not thinking or having emotions would even let me allow another sub to play with us together if that would make Him happy. I hate having emotions, I just want to be a permanent blank slate.
So for now I'll go along for the ride and hope maybe He will see me the way I see Him, and maybe cards will line up in our favor. But realistically knowing my chances I am going to expect living the rest of my life alone.
-DS<3
Friday, May 24, 2013
Down and Stupid
I wish this was a better post, but I'm feeling down, and none of the less, stupid. And I need to rant.
I knew from the beginning of our D/s relationship that Master was getting over a crush with a vanilla girl that couldn't work, and I thought things would get better for Him, especially with Him owning me. Now it's been about 5 months or so since He's owned me, but yet He still can't get over this girl who probably has more than me going for her at the moment. But what makes it worse is that I get to see His posts on other social networking sites about Him missing her and His pain for her and so on without talking to me, as his doll and sub, about it. He got me to admit to Him that I love Him and how much I care for Him not only as a Master, but as a person as well. so naturally I'm feeling heartbroken tonight.
So yes, I do feel stupid. I feel stupid for falling easily. I feel stupid that I know what my options are with the possible consequences, yet don't know what to do. I've been #2 in some of my other relationships in the past (with and without me knowing at the time) and I know I can't handle it again. I can honestly say that this is probably one of the loneliest times of my life, and that this is the longest I've ever been single in about 7-8 years: no one to openly talk to, hug, cuddle, kiss, fuck, or even hear "I love you". and it's not like I can "move on" and find a boyfriend or girlfriend (yes, I'm bisexual if you didn't know already), or even a fuck buddy because I don't want to get tied down to someone where I'm from because I'd like to move out of state for graduate school.
So maybe He'll read this, maybe He won't. Either way thank you for reading this.
-DS<3
I knew from the beginning of our D/s relationship that Master was getting over a crush with a vanilla girl that couldn't work, and I thought things would get better for Him, especially with Him owning me. Now it's been about 5 months or so since He's owned me, but yet He still can't get over this girl who probably has more than me going for her at the moment. But what makes it worse is that I get to see His posts on other social networking sites about Him missing her and His pain for her and so on without talking to me, as his doll and sub, about it. He got me to admit to Him that I love Him and how much I care for Him not only as a Master, but as a person as well. so naturally I'm feeling heartbroken tonight.
So yes, I do feel stupid. I feel stupid for falling easily. I feel stupid that I know what my options are with the possible consequences, yet don't know what to do. I've been #2 in some of my other relationships in the past (with and without me knowing at the time) and I know I can't handle it again. I can honestly say that this is probably one of the loneliest times of my life, and that this is the longest I've ever been single in about 7-8 years: no one to openly talk to, hug, cuddle, kiss, fuck, or even hear "I love you". and it's not like I can "move on" and find a boyfriend or girlfriend (yes, I'm bisexual if you didn't know already), or even a fuck buddy because I don't want to get tied down to someone where I'm from because I'd like to move out of state for graduate school.
So maybe He'll read this, maybe He won't. Either way thank you for reading this.
-DS<3
Wednesday, May 15, 2013
My Second Life
To start, I apologize for the lack of blogging. Both Master Kronos and I had a hectic schedule, and hasn't been much play, until the past couple of days or so, that is...
Master has introduced me to the game Second Life. I have heard of it before, however, I didn't know it could be this... "fun". I am still getting used to the controls, but when I am in the second world, it is like the real world or human self doesn't exist or matter. I am a kitten pleasure unit owned by Bailey Button, who is also a kitten bot. She is lovely, and a fair owner. My speech changes- I am unable to use first person and contractions. I am leashed by her, and have no freewill- just the way I like it. Like any robot, she can switch me on and off, which affects my human body as well. Unfortunately, due to my inexperience, I disappointed her tonight by not figuring out how to follow a certain command. I feel so guilty and ashamed because, like any good sub, I hate disappointing my Owner. But she punished me by transforming me into a brainwashed doll as she sat back and watched. I focused on the words "Obey, relax, breath deeply", and so on, and I was lost within the words.
He wasn't able to bring back my human self until our Skype session, but I did not want to come back. The thing is,(which I hope he knows and understands) no matter what form he transforms me into, whether it is as his pleasure bot, doll, pet, or back to my human self, I will obey and aim to please him no matter what. Even when Master or myself wants to switch to me being dominant for a session, all I want to do is make him happy. Lately I have been considering what I can do that is subtle/unknown to make myself feel owned or set myself apart from the vanillas while in the vanilla world, such as at work or school. I'll figure something out hopefully.
Well, back to the "real world"... for now.
-DS <3
Master has introduced me to the game Second Life. I have heard of it before, however, I didn't know it could be this... "fun". I am still getting used to the controls, but when I am in the second world, it is like the real world or human self doesn't exist or matter. I am a kitten pleasure unit owned by Bailey Button, who is also a kitten bot. She is lovely, and a fair owner. My speech changes- I am unable to use first person and contractions. I am leashed by her, and have no freewill- just the way I like it. Like any robot, she can switch me on and off, which affects my human body as well. Unfortunately, due to my inexperience, I disappointed her tonight by not figuring out how to follow a certain command. I feel so guilty and ashamed because, like any good sub, I hate disappointing my Owner. But she punished me by transforming me into a brainwashed doll as she sat back and watched. I focused on the words "Obey, relax, breath deeply", and so on, and I was lost within the words.
He wasn't able to bring back my human self until our Skype session, but I did not want to come back. The thing is,(which I hope he knows and understands) no matter what form he transforms me into, whether it is as his pleasure bot, doll, pet, or back to my human self, I will obey and aim to please him no matter what. Even when Master or myself wants to switch to me being dominant for a session, all I want to do is make him happy. Lately I have been considering what I can do that is subtle/unknown to make myself feel owned or set myself apart from the vanillas while in the vanilla world, such as at work or school. I'll figure something out hopefully.
Well, back to the "real world"... for now.
-DS <3
Tuesday, April 9, 2013
Bad Doll...
I felt like a bad doll the past couple days, in two different definitions of the word. To start, I've been busy wrapping up this semester, which has made my sleep schedule (what one I do have) hectic, and unfortunately I've missed my Master's skype calls or messages every now and then, including tonight. I'm actually taking a break from writing a paper now to write this entry, just to clear my mind. I can't wait for our schedules to line up a little better in a week or so like it was before.
I've also been a "bad" doll in that I've had some fantasies the past couple nights that involve dominating my Master. I only had 20 minutes to lay down and shut my eyes last night (well, morning I suppose) before I got ready for school, and all I could think about is making Him my pet, my dog, through my own trigger words. I want to free Him from His human stress for a little while and just play with Him, pet Him, walk Him, everything. After a little of that, I want to make Him my fuck toy, my zentai doll for a night. I want to take that control from Him for a while and let Him sit back and have no need to think for once. I just want to make Him beg to cum.Oh, the things I had in mind for Him.... It was definitely a relaxing 20 minute break.
-DS <3
Tuesday, April 2, 2013
New stuff!
To start off, I apologize for not keeping up on the blog as much as I normally do: It's been pretty hectic with school and work. But I'll do the best I can, and I'll have more time for myself soon.
I went to a local store and bought myself a whitish-blond and pink long-haired wig. I wanted to pick something different than my dark black hair, and I felt it suited my dolly side perfectly. I couldn't wait to wear it for Master!
Also, last week I received a special package in the mail... I ordered a pink zentai with open eyes and mouth (as well as a zipper crotch) just so I can have "more access" to some doll duties and to show off my dolly eyes. Of course, the zentai also matches my wig. The next night off I had from work I did my own little photo shoot. I started the shoot with my dolly eyes/makeup, wig, pink bra and lacey panties, pink stockings, and ballet boots. Then I moved on to the new zentai, doll eyes, and wig combination, and I got about seven good pictures altogether.
Now, let me say, I am a huge fan of RuPaul's drag race, and watch all the new episodes that I can. And almost every one of the contestants say how more confident and pretty and gorgeous they feel as their drag character than their everyday self. I realized while watching the new ep that that is how I feel. I feel my vanilla self is sometimes awkward, don't know what to do with my hair or what to wear. But dolled up me with the wig makes me look like a whole different person! I look back at the pictures and I'm even surprised that's m at times. I was confident enough to do an almost exposed photo shoot than I am taking a picture of regular self with me over the holidays! I would rather pick what color eyes or hair I want that day and live life like that. If only...
-DS <3
I went to a local store and bought myself a whitish-blond and pink long-haired wig. I wanted to pick something different than my dark black hair, and I felt it suited my dolly side perfectly. I couldn't wait to wear it for Master!
Also, last week I received a special package in the mail... I ordered a pink zentai with open eyes and mouth (as well as a zipper crotch) just so I can have "more access" to some doll duties and to show off my dolly eyes. Of course, the zentai also matches my wig. The next night off I had from work I did my own little photo shoot. I started the shoot with my dolly eyes/makeup, wig, pink bra and lacey panties, pink stockings, and ballet boots. Then I moved on to the new zentai, doll eyes, and wig combination, and I got about seven good pictures altogether.
Now, let me say, I am a huge fan of RuPaul's drag race, and watch all the new episodes that I can. And almost every one of the contestants say how more confident and pretty and gorgeous they feel as their drag character than their everyday self. I realized while watching the new ep that that is how I feel. I feel my vanilla self is sometimes awkward, don't know what to do with my hair or what to wear. But dolled up me with the wig makes me look like a whole different person! I look back at the pictures and I'm even surprised that's m at times. I was confident enough to do an almost exposed photo shoot than I am taking a picture of regular self with me over the holidays! I would rather pick what color eyes or hair I want that day and live life like that. If only...
-DS <3
Saturday, March 16, 2013
Getting Ideas...
Today I started watching the awesome show "American Horror Story", a show I've been meaning to watch for a while now. In the show there is a complete latex body suit including mask that appears in pretty much every episode and it's been used by different characters for different reasons: from spicing up a relationship, to forced impregnation and non-consent. Needless to say it's been giving me ideas...
I've been picturing sleeping in my bed, dark in the middle of the night. All of the sudden, this stranger manages to sneak into my apartment and uses me against my will. I would be unable to move, or fight him off of me, instilling fear in me. The only part of him I would see is his dark eyes, and maybe I'd get to see his penis. And turns out, it would be my Master, completely unexpected due to the distance. But I would love the initial fear of not knowing who it is, and what He'd do to me. I'd especially love the feel of the latex against my skin. He would get to be my rubber doll for a little while.
Just a thought I've had all day that I wanted to share ^_^
-DS <3
I've been picturing sleeping in my bed, dark in the middle of the night. All of the sudden, this stranger manages to sneak into my apartment and uses me against my will. I would be unable to move, or fight him off of me, instilling fear in me. The only part of him I would see is his dark eyes, and maybe I'd get to see his penis. And turns out, it would be my Master, completely unexpected due to the distance. But I would love the initial fear of not knowing who it is, and what He'd do to me. I'd especially love the feel of the latex against my skin. He would get to be my rubber doll for a little while.
Just a thought I've had all day that I wanted to share ^_^
-DS <3
Wednesday, March 13, 2013
The Most Amazing Weekend- Sunday
We knew the day would eventually come, and Sunday came. It was the day I had to go home, and I was not looking forward to it. Master and I woke up to our usual morning petting, but I decided to pull out a little something from my suitcase before I had to leave. I transformed Him into a mannequin while I got ready. I went into my suitcase and pulled out my black metallic Domme dress that He likes and put it on. I happened to find the flogger from the night before and I figured since I got hit with one for the first time, I might as well try using it for the first time as well.
I went back into the bedroom, and He was perfectly still- in the same place I left Him. He was such a good pet for me I didn't want to completely punish Him. I started to stroke His cock while lightly brushing the flogger on His stomach, but then I gave Him a nice hit. I'd go back and forth between stroking Him then striking Him, as well as saying my trigger word to make Him orgasm as I hit Him. I got to do some more breath play on Him, to the point to where He had to break out of mannequin to try to breathe. Once I had my fun, He was back in charge and had me ride Him. When we were out of breath and worn out, He put me under His trance while I was still on top of Him. He reminded me He could make me stay if He wanted to, but it was time for me to go home and tell my wonderful stories from the weekend (from both the kink and vanilla perspective).
It was difficult to bring myself to get dressed and get in the car to go to the airport. I wasn't ready to go home: California is so beautiful, it's my type of crowd, and most of all I wanted to stay as a doll and serve my Master. But He reminded me there are things I must do back home before I move anywhere, such as school and a few more months at my current place of employment (which I knew, but still didn't want to remember).
But I know I'll be back out there before we know it.
-DS <3
I went back into the bedroom, and He was perfectly still- in the same place I left Him. He was such a good pet for me I didn't want to completely punish Him. I started to stroke His cock while lightly brushing the flogger on His stomach, but then I gave Him a nice hit. I'd go back and forth between stroking Him then striking Him, as well as saying my trigger word to make Him orgasm as I hit Him. I got to do some more breath play on Him, to the point to where He had to break out of mannequin to try to breathe. Once I had my fun, He was back in charge and had me ride Him. When we were out of breath and worn out, He put me under His trance while I was still on top of Him. He reminded me He could make me stay if He wanted to, but it was time for me to go home and tell my wonderful stories from the weekend (from both the kink and vanilla perspective).
It was difficult to bring myself to get dressed and get in the car to go to the airport. I wasn't ready to go home: California is so beautiful, it's my type of crowd, and most of all I wanted to stay as a doll and serve my Master. But He reminded me there are things I must do back home before I move anywhere, such as school and a few more months at my current place of employment (which I knew, but still didn't want to remember).
But I know I'll be back out there before we know it.
-DS <3
Monday, March 11, 2013
The Most Amazing Weekend- Saturday
Saturday when Master Kronos and I woke up we were ready to go again. This time He wanted me to have the chance to be dominant. I got to make Him stay stuck in one place, and see if I could push His limits like He pushed mine. I grabbed the plastic bag He used on me the previous day, and placed it over His head. I was quite surprised how long He could go without showing a struggle or panic. This was my first time getting to use my trigger words for Him, and I could tell He was having as much fun as I was. But after I had my fun, He switched back to give me the same treatment I gave Him.
When it was time to get dressed for the day, He told me He wanted me to be a doll that day as we walked around town; which I planned on anyways. I even wore a pair of leggings too, just as He likes. It was interesting to me that no one we encountered mentioned or reacted how big my eyes were, compared to back where I'm from. I even forgot I even had the contacts in, it all felt natural.
After sight-seeing it was back to His place for dinner, a movie, and His grand finale. He made sure I was completely comfortable the whole time He had planned for me. He told me to take my clothes off, and put a blind and gag mask on me. It was so exciting, I haven't been blindfolded in so long, not to mention gagged! He tied me to His couch laying down on my back, arms and legs spread out with rope between my breasts and over my hips and pussy. I loved feeling so vulnerable to His "evil plans", as we like to call them. He flogged my stomach, chest, and pussy, which was a first for me, and it didn't hurt at all like I expected! Maybe I'm getting a little cocky, but I feel confident I could handle more. Sometimes in between punishing my body with the flog He would force His fingers into my pussy, pleasuring me, and I moaned through the gag.
Then Master whipped out His little toy that sent out shocks where ever He wanted: a fantasy I was also curious about. He placed it throughout my whole body, and it even felt so good that He got to the sides of my ribs it tickled! He experimented with creating some sensations He's never tried before with it. He placed it on my nipple rings, and I could really feel it. Then He told me He wanted to remind me that it's cold, freezing, and snowy back in my hometown. He got up and came back with ice cubes, and placed one on each nipple, and pushed one in and out of my pussy. That cold was so intense, especially since I could feel my warm pussy melting it, making water run down for a different sensation. Then He brought His toy back out and got me where the ice melted to intensify the feeling. He would occasionally stop and I could hear Him taking pictures of His work.
He gave a little intermission for me to get something to drink, and to change into my red zentai. He placed the blindfold and gag back on me, then put the hood on. He cuffed my hands together and sat me down while He prepared for the big surprise. He came back, stood me up, and He started to mummify me with cling wrap! The more He covered, the warmer and more comfortable it felt-comfortable enough to even sleep in. He even covered my face, making it harder to breathe. He pushed down to make sure it was really covering my mouth and nose, and just watched me squirm and struggle for air. I accidentally managed to poke a finger or two out from my mummification, He decided to free only my hands, and I was quick and eager to find his cock to pleasure it through my zentai gloves. He was so proud of me He took a picture of me doing my job as his slave. He got back close to me, and as He made it harder for me to breathe again , He told me He was the "bad guy" that everyone back home warned me I could encounter on my vacation, and that He might just kill me. After He watched my struggled reaction, He let me breathe because He was ready and excited to open His wrapped up packaged doll that was just shipped to Him. He unwrapped me, and we moved to His bed where He used and fucked me like the little doll that I am.
Master definitely delivered on His promise of it being the grand finale. We did not have a lot of energy left after the last two hours (which didn't seem that long at all! But you know what they say about time when you're having fun...), so we just laid in bed, talked for a bit, then it was bedtime for my all too soon flight home the next day.
-DS<3
When it was time to get dressed for the day, He told me He wanted me to be a doll that day as we walked around town; which I planned on anyways. I even wore a pair of leggings too, just as He likes. It was interesting to me that no one we encountered mentioned or reacted how big my eyes were, compared to back where I'm from. I even forgot I even had the contacts in, it all felt natural.
After sight-seeing it was back to His place for dinner, a movie, and His grand finale. He made sure I was completely comfortable the whole time He had planned for me. He told me to take my clothes off, and put a blind and gag mask on me. It was so exciting, I haven't been blindfolded in so long, not to mention gagged! He tied me to His couch laying down on my back, arms and legs spread out with rope between my breasts and over my hips and pussy. I loved feeling so vulnerable to His "evil plans", as we like to call them. He flogged my stomach, chest, and pussy, which was a first for me, and it didn't hurt at all like I expected! Maybe I'm getting a little cocky, but I feel confident I could handle more. Sometimes in between punishing my body with the flog He would force His fingers into my pussy, pleasuring me, and I moaned through the gag.
Then Master whipped out His little toy that sent out shocks where ever He wanted: a fantasy I was also curious about. He placed it throughout my whole body, and it even felt so good that He got to the sides of my ribs it tickled! He experimented with creating some sensations He's never tried before with it. He placed it on my nipple rings, and I could really feel it. Then He told me He wanted to remind me that it's cold, freezing, and snowy back in my hometown. He got up and came back with ice cubes, and placed one on each nipple, and pushed one in and out of my pussy. That cold was so intense, especially since I could feel my warm pussy melting it, making water run down for a different sensation. Then He brought His toy back out and got me where the ice melted to intensify the feeling. He would occasionally stop and I could hear Him taking pictures of His work.
He gave a little intermission for me to get something to drink, and to change into my red zentai. He placed the blindfold and gag back on me, then put the hood on. He cuffed my hands together and sat me down while He prepared for the big surprise. He came back, stood me up, and He started to mummify me with cling wrap! The more He covered, the warmer and more comfortable it felt-comfortable enough to even sleep in. He even covered my face, making it harder to breathe. He pushed down to make sure it was really covering my mouth and nose, and just watched me squirm and struggle for air. I accidentally managed to poke a finger or two out from my mummification, He decided to free only my hands, and I was quick and eager to find his cock to pleasure it through my zentai gloves. He was so proud of me He took a picture of me doing my job as his slave. He got back close to me, and as He made it harder for me to breathe again , He told me He was the "bad guy" that everyone back home warned me I could encounter on my vacation, and that He might just kill me. After He watched my struggled reaction, He let me breathe because He was ready and excited to open His wrapped up packaged doll that was just shipped to Him. He unwrapped me, and we moved to His bed where He used and fucked me like the little doll that I am.
Master definitely delivered on His promise of it being the grand finale. We did not have a lot of energy left after the last two hours (which didn't seem that long at all! But you know what they say about time when you're having fun...), so we just laid in bed, talked for a bit, then it was bedtime for my all too soon flight home the next day.
-DS<3
Thursday, March 7, 2013
The Most Amazing Weekend- Friday
When we woke up, it felt like it was just natural to start touching and petting each other. We didn't have a lot of time to play that morning because of the touristy-plans we had for the day; but we still had time for mannequin time fun. He even put me in a trance for some consensual non-consent, which was a fantasy I've had for a long while. I have complete trust in Master Kronos, and with that He pushed my breath play limits with this fantasy by using a trash bag over my head. It was as hot as I imagined it to be!
We had our tourist fun, and had a few drinks with friends. Even though we were drinking in public, I still froze for a minute like a mannequin, and even after more drinks I was still in the mood to be played with and to pleasure Him. We went a little lighter on the rough play because of the drinks, but mannequin sex satisfied the both of us.
The next day was going to be the grand finale...
-DS <3
We had our tourist fun, and had a few drinks with friends. Even though we were drinking in public, I still froze for a minute like a mannequin, and even after more drinks I was still in the mood to be played with and to pleasure Him. We went a little lighter on the rough play because of the drinks, but mannequin sex satisfied the both of us.
The next day was going to be the grand finale...
-DS <3
Monday, March 4, 2013
The Most Amazing Weekend- Thursday
Thursday was the day- The first day I got to meet my Master in person. He was kind enough to pick me up at the airport, and we went to get a quick bite, but then it was to His place. I'll admit I was somewhat quiet in the car ride just due to the fact that I was in California, finally with Master Kronos. It was nice to see where He lived and what it was like in person, because I see very little from the Skype cam.
As soon as I got settled in, He made me His mannequin and sex doll. He started petting and kissing me, and He could tell I was excited by my heavy breathing. He made me undress in front of Him, and suck His cock. I waited the longest time to have His cock in my mouth, and it was fulfilling to do. Then, He finally got me on the bed, and he used me more...
Since I was staying at His place the whole weekend, we felt it was fair for me to work off my stay. He transformed me into His robot, and handed me a black catsuit to wear that fit surprisingly well. He told me to clean His bathroom, and if He approves of my work by the time He finishes His chores, He would reward me. I worked and scrubbed, wanting to please my Master. About a half hour later, He approved my work, and told me to get into my blue zentai, and get in the bed.
He dressed in his zentai with the penis sleeve, and true to His word, He rewarded me. Feeling each other in our second skins, rubbing His cock against my crotch with the zipper open. It was incredible to feel after years of not playing with anyone in zentai- and He knew it. In fact, He knew everything I liked, and knew how to touch and kiss me. We had sex several times that night, but I definitely couldn't keep track of how many times we orgasmed.
After we tired ourselves out, we went to bed while holding hands.
And this was only the first night...
-DS <3
As soon as I got settled in, He made me His mannequin and sex doll. He started petting and kissing me, and He could tell I was excited by my heavy breathing. He made me undress in front of Him, and suck His cock. I waited the longest time to have His cock in my mouth, and it was fulfilling to do. Then, He finally got me on the bed, and he used me more...
Since I was staying at His place the whole weekend, we felt it was fair for me to work off my stay. He transformed me into His robot, and handed me a black catsuit to wear that fit surprisingly well. He told me to clean His bathroom, and if He approves of my work by the time He finishes His chores, He would reward me. I worked and scrubbed, wanting to please my Master. About a half hour later, He approved my work, and told me to get into my blue zentai, and get in the bed.
He dressed in his zentai with the penis sleeve, and true to His word, He rewarded me. Feeling each other in our second skins, rubbing His cock against my crotch with the zipper open. It was incredible to feel after years of not playing with anyone in zentai- and He knew it. In fact, He knew everything I liked, and knew how to touch and kiss me. We had sex several times that night, but I definitely couldn't keep track of how many times we orgasmed.
After we tired ourselves out, we went to bed while holding hands.
And this was only the first night...
-DS <3
Sunday, February 17, 2013
Coming back?
I think my stress level is starting to go down. My overall mood is way better and I'm playful again, but I think my dreams are starting to come back. It was a rocky start a few days ago: I had a dream where I lived with some room mates who were into kink with their partners, but these activities were illegal. We were all on the run, and we lost a few people along the way. It was a little darker, but some of it was fun.
But last night I had a dream where my Master and I were in my apartment and we introduced one of my employees (who I'm not fond of in real life) to my zentais because she found our FetLife pages. It wasn't the most exciting dream (if I liked the person I would have had a better attitude about introducing my interests) but I got the word out there about zentais anyways. I don't know why, but a lot of my revealing dreams involve me telling my employees/coworkers about my kinks. (even though I'm not interested in any of them).
Either way, things are starting to look up. Master Kronos and I haven't played too much this week, but in 11 days I'll be all his to play with.....
-DS<3
But last night I had a dream where my Master and I were in my apartment and we introduced one of my employees (who I'm not fond of in real life) to my zentais because she found our FetLife pages. It wasn't the most exciting dream (if I liked the person I would have had a better attitude about introducing my interests) but I got the word out there about zentais anyways. I don't know why, but a lot of my revealing dreams involve me telling my employees/coworkers about my kinks. (even though I'm not interested in any of them).
Either way, things are starting to look up. Master Kronos and I haven't played too much this week, but in 11 days I'll be all his to play with.....
-DS<3
Tuesday, February 12, 2013
Is it March yet?
As I mentioned in my last post, I was having a little trouble dreaming about being a doll or serving my Master Kronos like that whole month before it. Sadly, I'm still having that trouble, and it maybe due to the added stress of my vanilla job and school. This is disappointing, just because even though I always have some stress issues, those dreams were at least one way I could escape and visit my Master early ;). I'm hoping that after the next stressful 2-1/2 weeks are done, my dreams will be back to the way they were.
16 more days- until my dolly getaway!
-DS <3
16 more days- until my dolly getaway!
-DS <3
Sunday, February 3, 2013
Dreams
I was having really good doll related dreams for a while. The last one I had was about 3-4 days ago. I had a dream that I was at my job and I told off my recent lying ex-boyfriend about how I found my Master, and how I was finally sexually satisfied, as well as happier altogether with him. Everyone who was around us (who were coworkers) heard and discovered my "outside interests" and thought nothing of it. It was satisfying to at least simulate telling him off and revealing to everyone that I am an owned doll.
Unfortunately, I've been having stressful thoughts before sleeping that I can't shake off. So I haven't had a doll related dream since then- which is unusual considering I've been having all good dreams for about a month straight. In fact, the past 2 nights have been about abandonment. Hope my subconscious isn't trying to tell me something...
-DS <3
Unfortunately, I've been having stressful thoughts before sleeping that I can't shake off. So I haven't had a doll related dream since then- which is unusual considering I've been having all good dreams for about a month straight. In fact, the past 2 nights have been about abandonment. Hope my subconscious isn't trying to tell me something...
-DS <3
Saturday, February 2, 2013
Mindless
Last night, my Master turned me into his sex-doll mannequin while he enjoyed a movie. He happened to turn me while I was sucking an invisible cock. I don't remember much- like what movie he was watching- and I lost the sense of time. I thought I was still for about 10 to 15 minutes, but according to Kronos I was a mannequin for about 45 minutes. I guess it's true that time really flies when you're having fun.....
I do know that I was almost completely mindless. I didn't have any thoughts about work, school, or life issues. All I thought about was being a good doll and pleasing my handsome Master, and that I was fortunate to just be still and be allowed to look at him that long. I could tell he was enjoying it because I remember he would occasionally look over at me and give that devious smile. He loved it so much that he took a picture of how mindless I looked.
26 days until I see him in person. I know the wait will be worth it!
- DS <3
I do know that I was almost completely mindless. I didn't have any thoughts about work, school, or life issues. All I thought about was being a good doll and pleasing my handsome Master, and that I was fortunate to just be still and be allowed to look at him that long. I could tell he was enjoying it because I remember he would occasionally look over at me and give that devious smile. He loved it so much that he took a picture of how mindless I looked.
26 days until I see him in person. I know the wait will be worth it!
- DS <3
Saturday, January 26, 2013
Mannequin Again
As I mentioned before, I got intoxicated to the point to where I felt myself turning into a mannequin. Last night it happened again, but it was different this time- It was stronger and longer. Not only did I go still, but I felt like I had a cock in my pussy and in my mouth at the same time. As amazing as it felt, I still couldn't move or react to what I was feeling. I felt the sensation as if the cocks were going faster, to the point to where I felt an internal orgasm, but I didn't even change my breathing. When the mannequinism faded, I was slightly dizzy, but overall, I couldn't have been happier. I felt stress relief.
Just proof that I am becoming more doll and mannequin-like as each day goes by. And I'm loving this!
-DS<3
Just proof that I am becoming more doll and mannequin-like as each day goes by. And I'm loving this!
-DS<3
Thursday, January 24, 2013
Excited!
I cannot stop thinking about the fact that I am finally going to meet my Master in person in just about a month! It has been so long since I have been in the kink scene before Kronos made me his doll, and I don't know how I went so long without it. If the vanilla lifestyle is a preference for someone else, that's great, but I have realized through recent relationships that it is just not my thing. I know this may sound ironic, but even though I am owned, this whole experience so far has been liberating: to no longer feel human with its stresses and troubles, and to just be a lucky doll who is played with by an amazing Owner.
Even though I have all of this new confidence in myself since living like a doll, I am also nervous. My human self wasn't always social, and didn't have a lot of friends. I was always afraid of saying something stupid, especially in front of someone attractive. So I kept pretty quiet. Lately I have been more outgoing and charming, but there might be that tendency still to say something stupid-and I hope this doesn't tome in front of my very attractive Master. But, I think maybe it's in my head, and the excitement definitely outweighs the nervousness.
Have I mentioned how excited I am?
-DS <3
Even though I have all of this new confidence in myself since living like a doll, I am also nervous. My human self wasn't always social, and didn't have a lot of friends. I was always afraid of saying something stupid, especially in front of someone attractive. So I kept pretty quiet. Lately I have been more outgoing and charming, but there might be that tendency still to say something stupid-and I hope this doesn't tome in front of my very attractive Master. But, I think maybe it's in my head, and the excitement definitely outweighs the nervousness.
Have I mentioned how excited I am?
-DS <3
Saturday, January 19, 2013
Contacts!
I promise no one paid me to post this- but I love my dolly contacts from Geo Colored Lenses! The contacts, as well as the right make-up, make my eyes look huge, and of course, doll like. I got them today after waiting for a long 3-1/2 weeks, and I couldn't wait to put them on! I am a glasses girl and I never put contacts on before, so I was a little nervous putting them in... but the result is amazing. But when I get the extra cash here and there, I'm going to buy more of different colors and designs.
My old vanilla self was never confident about herself, especially her looks. But when I get dolled up-especially now with these lenses- I love taking pictures of myself and looking in the mirror because I can't believe this is me now, and this is the most attractive I have ever felt. I can't wait for Kronos to see me like this! ^_^
I HIGHLY recommend anyone who is trying the doll look to get 15 mm contacts at one point or another. I promise it is worth it!
-DS <3
My old vanilla self was never confident about herself, especially her looks. But when I get dolled up-especially now with these lenses- I love taking pictures of myself and looking in the mirror because I can't believe this is me now, and this is the most attractive I have ever felt. I can't wait for Kronos to see me like this! ^_^
I HIGHLY recommend anyone who is trying the doll look to get 15 mm contacts at one point or another. I promise it is worth it!
-DS <3
Friday, January 18, 2013
Simply Intoxicated
Last night was the first night I got completely intoxicated since I became a doll 24/7. Usually, my vanilla self is giggly, lively, outgoing, especially when music is playing. But last night was different. I found that not only did I stop thinking, but I stopped moving, even blinking. My breathing slowed dramatically. I believe I was like that for 3-5 minutes, and it was the best feeling. Just completely relaxed.
I have not pinned down what kind of doll I am because I would like to experiment with them all, but I have unintentionally-both to Kronos and I- become a mannequin doll while intoxicated (at least while I am at home). But if I go from a living doll to a still mannequin without even knowing or thinking about it while intoxicated, who knows what kind of doll I'll become when there is another factor/unassigned trigger.
Can't wait to find out.
-DS <3
I have not pinned down what kind of doll I am because I would like to experiment with them all, but I have unintentionally-both to Kronos and I- become a mannequin doll while intoxicated (at least while I am at home). But if I go from a living doll to a still mannequin without even knowing or thinking about it while intoxicated, who knows what kind of doll I'll become when there is another factor/unassigned trigger.
Can't wait to find out.
-DS <3
Tuesday, January 15, 2013
24/7
The past 2 days I have been 24/7 doll, taking the identity of my vanilla self. I no longer think of myself as my common name, I just know that I have a name that I am referred to in the real world that I need to respond to. Also, I have been walking more confidently, head held high, even through stressful days between work and school. Although I go through these stressful days with a more positive attitude, part of me just wants to quit it all and live the full lifestyle of a doll- ready to serve Master and be played with and used anytime, instead of being used and played by society.
I know my mind is just screaming for this because my dreams the past couple nights. I dreamt I didn't have to go to work at all-in fact there was no real world job for me. My job was to be a doll. The dream the next night, all I did was serve my Master and we took photo evidence of it.
I don't believe this lifestyle will ever happen to me, that I will be a dolly slave to society. But hey, a doll can dream, can't she?
-DS <3
Sunday, January 13, 2013
Becoming a Doll
I feel more like a doll more and more everyday-and the resolutions I made at the beginning of the year help. I'm determined to achieve a doll figure by exercising and eating and taking care of myself better, and so far I'm seeing improvement. I've lost some weight, eating WAY better, which has made my skin much softer. Another resolution is to sound less like a sailor in a conversation by cutting down my swearing, and sound more polite and professional. I've cut down a lot outside of work, but I still need to improve my language while I'm at work. Lastly, I wanted to be able to give myself time to relax instead of stressing about everyone and everything else with no gratitude. So far I have definitely given myself time to relax and to stop and smell the pretty flowers.
As I mentioned in my previous post, I have cut out the biggest unnecessary stress in my life and feel less weighed down, so I am finding myself to be more bubbly and outgoing. I find myself reasons to dance around by myself, and I am willing to go out and have fun more with friends and to events in my area-I have even thought about arriving to some of the public events in full doll attire- lashes, contacts, the whole package.
I wear black, if not all black, whenever I go out (with a doll look to it still), so I will never be comfortable wearing bright colors like pink and yellow outside However, I have started to dress cutesy and brighter colors under my clothes. It makes me feel like everyone who sees me will never guess that underneath I am a doll- that it's my little secret.
I am having fun becoming a doll, and I can't wait to see how much I can improve by next week alone! ^_^
-DS <3
As I mentioned in my previous post, I have cut out the biggest unnecessary stress in my life and feel less weighed down, so I am finding myself to be more bubbly and outgoing. I find myself reasons to dance around by myself, and I am willing to go out and have fun more with friends and to events in my area-I have even thought about arriving to some of the public events in full doll attire- lashes, contacts, the whole package.
I wear black, if not all black, whenever I go out (with a doll look to it still), so I will never be comfortable wearing bright colors like pink and yellow outside However, I have started to dress cutesy and brighter colors under my clothes. It makes me feel like everyone who sees me will never guess that underneath I am a doll- that it's my little secret.
I am having fun becoming a doll, and I can't wait to see how much I can improve by next week alone! ^_^
-DS <3
Thursday, January 10, 2013
The Beginning
Kronos has been hypnotizing me for roughly two weeks now, and although I do not remember everything when we meet, I know that my vanilla life has already improved. Overall, I am more relaxed, both physically and mentally, and I have even gained the courage and confidence to get rid of a negative person that was in my life.
Before hypnosis, I was sexually frustrated for months, and the more I missed all of my kinks, the worse I got. I am now fortunate enough to not only live out my fantasies and kinks with him, but to be allowed to have an orgasm at least several times a day alone when he triggers it. This reason itself has drastically decreased my tension.
I can tell I am more relaxed because my dreams have been pleasant. My dreams used to involve work scenarios, zombie attacks, or even worse, I couldn't remember a single thing. However, every night for a week or so, I have been experiencing dreams of bondage, pup play, mannequin-ism and asphyxiation, and much, much more.
As a result of being a perfect doll in my dreams, I have been trying to look as doll-like as I can in the vanilla part of my life. I've been making sure my hair and make-up is perfect, wearing bows, and even trying to dress better. I am currently waiting for dolly contacts, which I can't wait to wear for my Master and transform even more into a doll. I can't help but to feel obedient to him when he tells me that I am a good girl.
I am a grateful doll, and I cannot wait to see what more there is in store. Looking forward to updating!
-DollySlave
Before hypnosis, I was sexually frustrated for months, and the more I missed all of my kinks, the worse I got. I am now fortunate enough to not only live out my fantasies and kinks with him, but to be allowed to have an orgasm at least several times a day alone when he triggers it. This reason itself has drastically decreased my tension.
I can tell I am more relaxed because my dreams have been pleasant. My dreams used to involve work scenarios, zombie attacks, or even worse, I couldn't remember a single thing. However, every night for a week or so, I have been experiencing dreams of bondage, pup play, mannequin-ism and asphyxiation, and much, much more.
As a result of being a perfect doll in my dreams, I have been trying to look as doll-like as I can in the vanilla part of my life. I've been making sure my hair and make-up is perfect, wearing bows, and even trying to dress better. I am currently waiting for dolly contacts, which I can't wait to wear for my Master and transform even more into a doll. I can't help but to feel obedient to him when he tells me that I am a good girl.
I am a grateful doll, and I cannot wait to see what more there is in store. Looking forward to updating!
-DollySlave
Wednesday, January 9, 2013
Introduction
Welcome to my blog!
I have been active in the kink community for about 3 years now, but I am still learning about new kinks and trends, as well as learning more about how to improve and enjoy my own interests even more. I plan for this blog to act as a personal diary of this exploration for the public to read. I will describe my own experiences as a slave, a doll, and anything my Master, Kronos, would like me to be.
So far, he has been a very generous Master for giving me pleasure from my fantasies- whether they are ones I have always thought about, or new ideas from new fetishes. And I would like to share my blog of tales and interests with anyone with the same fantasies!
I have been active in the kink community for about 3 years now, but I am still learning about new kinks and trends, as well as learning more about how to improve and enjoy my own interests even more. I plan for this blog to act as a personal diary of this exploration for the public to read. I will describe my own experiences as a slave, a doll, and anything my Master, Kronos, would like me to be.
So far, he has been a very generous Master for giving me pleasure from my fantasies- whether they are ones I have always thought about, or new ideas from new fetishes. And I would like to share my blog of tales and interests with anyone with the same fantasies!
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